Stressed Out

This whole week I have just been stressed out, grumpy, and just not like my usual happy go lucky self. It sucks, I hate it.

A lot of it is this damn house, and the hoops the city of phoenix is making us go through. UGH...now we are having to apply for a hillside grading and drainage wavier (we live on a 1 acre hillside lot, and you can only disturb so much of your property). This is a long, expensive, and stressful process. It goes to hearing and everything. It just NOT fair, simply because even though our house is bigger than all of our neighbors, we still have the most undisturbed natural desert. I stated this in my appeal today, but it just pisses me off. The past three days I have been doing nothing but gathering all the necessary info I needed to submit with our appeal today. I should be getting a call back in the next week or so for a meeting with the city representatives, and then we will have the hearing.

The other thing that is really stressing me out is that on Friday, I have DH's daughter who is pregnant with her SECOND set of twins (which she cant afford) her husband, and their 3 kids coming into town and staying at our house for a week. So I have to get this house ready for guests and babies. I have not spoke with her since I heard the news.....and honestly, there is NO WAY in hell I am going to be able to look at her and say "Congratulations" because there is nothing to congratulate. I am sorry if that sounds mean, but that's how I feel. This is by far the dumbest thing they could have ever done, given they can barley afford the 3 kids they have and we had to support them (sent 700 a month!!) throughout her entire last pregnancy with the twins they already have because she was on bed rest. We do not have money to support their mistakes this time. They are old enough (27 and 32) to pay for their own actions and not try and rely on my husband. We are about to shell out butt loads of money just to conceive a child of our own. It really just makes me sick...

Them coming and staying with us for a week is going to be really hard on me emotionally. Here we are struggling with infertility to have ONE child of our own and here she comes, in her state, pregnant with her second set of twins....I just honestly don't know if I can take it.