Tuesday, October 14, 2008


Yes, our cycle was cancelled last week : ( I took it surprisingly well considering how intense and emotional the whole IVF process is. By the time I reached day 6 I had been to the Dr. almost every morning at 7:30-8:30, could not fit into ANY of my pants, my stomach was so sore and I had little bruises all over my tummy (which are still there BTW, but starting to go away). The extreme bloating is JUST now starting to really get better....Oh the battlefield that is IVF!

So where do we go from here? Well for now we are going to take a "break" the next month or two. We are going to see what continues to happen with DH's count because he is still on his injects. He goes back to the uro next month, and I will have to go back to the RE On CD 1 to make sure my ovaries went back down to normal. Depending on how that goes we may or may not go forward with another IVF in Dec or Jan. So until then I may not be blogging much about IF or babies. I kind of need a mental "breather" from it all. Of course we will continue to try at home during this time and you never know maybe we will get one of those "miracle break cycle BFP's".

So for now I am just focusing on my beautiful daughter and husband and taking things one day at a time. After all this, it has made me feel even more grateful and lucky to have such a perfect little girl!!

Friday, October 10, 2008

May Be Cancelled Today...

I know I have not updated my blog in almost a week.....it has been a crazy week to say the least. Not just with the IVF, but just life in general! Whew....now onto the news.

My rock star ovaries went into overdrive and it looks like I am overstimulating. I had a feeling that might happen to me considering my high antral follie counts and the fact I have never even taken clomid before, so had no idea how I would respond to injectables. So I cant say that I am shocked. Things were going (pretty) smoothly until yesterday. I have another b/w and u/s this morning to figure out where to go from here. At this point I don't even care if it gets cancelled, I am so over the stress, emotions, and discomfort from all this. I am SO bloated and seriously cant even button my pants!!

All those shots for nothing, my belly has little bruises all over it and it is so sore. Oh well. At least I did not open all my meds and they don't expire for a long time. The nurse said we can try again in Dec/Jan. if we want, which is not that far away. Or we may wait and do another S/A next month to see if DH has improved at all since being on the shots for a few months now. My DH has been great and helping me keep a postitive outlook on all of this.

We'll see what happens today. Wish me luck, and thank you for all your kind words and support through all of this!!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

First Shot(s) Down...Many To Go...

OMG I was SO nervous! While prepping everything I made every excuse why I had to stop..I have to check on Kay...I have to go to the bathroom...you name it I tried it. Thank god for my DH!! He really helped me get it together, I would be lost without him. I had to do 2 shots, one on either side of my belly button. It did not hurt at all, just stung a tiny bit after. But since I have never given myself a shot before (and in my tummy no less) I had no idea what to expect.

I have a confession though, as you will see in the pics below it looks as if I gave myself the shots, when really in the end I had to have my DH do the dirty work as you can see in the last picture. I tried, but I just COULD NOT push the needle in. I will try again tonight. So without further ado, here are some pics from last nights festivites:

Thursday, October 2, 2008

All Set

I took my last BCP on Tuesday night and went in this morning for my baseline u/s, blood draw, and final teaching visit. I start follistim and my baby asprin on Saturday. I call medvoice tonight to get my starting dose and appt. time for my first follie check!

I have not been updating my blog because first I was sick and then I have not been sleeping well the last couple nights...therefore have not been my usual energetic self. Hopefully that will all change now that I got a decent nights sleep last night. YAY!

And I promise I will upload some pics soon!


Got the call...I start 150iu of follistim and 50units of low dose HCG on sat. and go in for my first follie scan on monday!