Friday, May 22, 2009

The Green Paper Bag


This green paper bag has been sitting comfortably in my refrigerator since September of 2008. Yes, it takes up a lot of room. Yes, it is in the way. Yes, sometimes we wish it wasn't there, but this green paper bag was once our only shot at having a child together. See what looks like just an ordinary green paper bag to the average person is so much more than that. It is whats inside that makes it so valuable, so full of hope, such visions for the future. So what could be inside you ask? Well about 2,000.00 worth of fertility drugs!! Follistim, low dose hcg, and garilinex. Words that are all too familiar to the woman going through IVF to have a child.

I was once that woman. And look at me now. Happily, 6 weeks and 6 days pregnant with a fridge full of drugs still. This does not happen for most, yes we were the lucky ones. But this wasn't handed to us either. We did not get a miracle break cycle BFP...but rather struggled for months and months, 22 of them actually, testing different drugs on my husband to try and "fix" our biggest problems. Although at many times I thought it was all for nothing, that we would never get to this place, it was all worth it. Every tear, every moment of heartache was worth seeing my precious little baby on that ultra sound machine.

So what happens to the green paper bag?? As soon as I get to a place (after 12 weeks) I will be donating these very very expensive drugs to another couple who is in my old shoes. To a couple who lays awake a night wondering how they are going to be able to get the money they need to try and have a family that so many others get for free. We paid full price for these meds, because we don't have IF coverage and are all OOP, and were lucky enough to be able to afford them. Most couples cant, and that is not fair. It is not fair that some couples get to attempt treatments without paying for ANYTHING, while some, just as deserving CANT. I don't want any couple trying to have a baby not be able too because they cant afford the 10,000+ dollars needed...especially in this economy.

So in a few months...this green paper bag will be taking up space in someone else's fridge. Giving them hope and that strength to pull through knowing that one day...it will all be worth it.

9 comments:

the d'angelo family said...

That was beautiful Lisa. I too donated my leftover meds to my clinic just the other week. Continued prayers for a happy and healthy pregnancy for you.

Christy
(ChristyD_TTC#2)

Hope said...

So wonderful of you! Everyone deserves the chance to try to be parents.

♥Tabitha said...

Such a sweet post!!

osuraj said...

Lisa-how do you donate your meds? If this FET cycle doesn't pan out we are going to be trying to get drugs as inexpensively as possible. I'm trying to figure out if we have anything like that in our area. Thanks!

Andrea said...

Not sure if you are a nestie...if not, let me know and I can send on the contact for the meds donation person. :)

Andrea said...

lol, sorry, totally forget my last comment...I didn't really look to see whose blog I was reading before I posted that:) OF COURSE you are a nestie!!!!

Lisa said...

osraj-

I am going to be donating them to another nestie, through the OOP med donatation, but you can first ask your clinic is they know anyone, and also try contacting your local RESOLVE rep. Best of luck to you and lets jsut pray that this isnt even a issue for you...because your FET is going to work!!!

Erika said...

I'm so overwhelmed at just the thought of you donating all of those meds. Bless you. I pray that by the time we get to try (with all the drugs and help) I'll have insurance coverage... But needless to say, what a big heart and compasionate person! Thanks for making my week!

looking4#3 said...

AWESOME!!! I had meds here too. I already got the name of the girl I am sending them too. Will be shipping them out tomorrow. Too bad I can't ship hope and hugs!!!