First off in the 15 months I have been charting I have never had such a beautiful chart! EVER! Have a look at my beautiful medically induced chart, it is wonderful in all its glory! But there it is...medically induced, so this could all mean nothing. Besides the sore bewbies (which I have every cycle I have done a IUI) I have also had some very minor cramping, which is new. I am not sure if it means anything or not, so I called my newly pg friend Mya and asked her if she had any cramping in the 2ww with her BFP, and she didn't. But she did say on the first tri board it is something that they discuss quite a bit, so I think it could be a good sign!
Honestly, I have tried to think about how I will feel if this cycle doesn't work, and I just don't know how I am going to deal with it. In the past, I have kept myself from getting too positive to somewhat act as a buffer when I get that BFN. It is a protective mechanism if you will.
This cycle was different. I was positive from the start and REALLY hopeful that this is in fact the one. I have often wondered if being positive this time around was silly of me. Because in the end of this 2ww I may just see another stark white pg test laughing in my face.
So should one going through IF not be positive and protect themselves from the let down every month? Or should one remain as positive and optimistic as possible only to be devastated and let down when it doesn't work? That is the million dollar question. What do you think?
Onto my fun filled weekend....
Tomorrow I am meeting up with a few other girls and a AMAZING photographer named Shelly from Ivy Studio's for a TRASH THE DRESS session!! I cant even begin to tell you how excited I am! I have wanted to do this since I got married and I am finally getting the opportunity. For those of you that don't know what this is, basically you put on your wedding dress and do very not wedding dress friendly things like jumping in a fountain, or rolling down a hill..so your trashing your dress!
I will post some pics as soon as I get some back, wish me luck...off to go get beautified for my shoot!
::::::::Oh please don't let my 12 pounds of IF weight gain prevent me from fitting in my wedding dress:::::::::::
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Keep up that positive attitude...I have a good feeling about this cycle for you! I had cramping all during my 2ww and still do off and on...I'm 6w5d today! Good Luck to you and have fun "trashing your dress"...that sounds like fun - can't wait for the pictures!!
I don't think there is anything wrong with a little optimism. I will be hopefully for you, too. :)
iclw
Beautiful chart! Don't you just love Follistim:) Not to get your hopes up, but I had some cramping too! Crossing my toes and fingers for you this cycle!!! Keep positive:)
My oppinion is that you should remain positive...because whether you are positive or negative, your not protected from the let down when something doesn't work, so you may as well be positive anyway!!
You have a great attitude - keep it up!
Crossing everything for you :) Stay positive. I second Tabitha's comment about being let down regardless of if you had your hopes up. The sting will never be lessened no matter what you try.
-Mr. Shelby
Oh, I hope this is your cycle!!! It sounds like everything has gone beautifully, so why not have that happy ending? :)
That is awesome about the HCG working for your husband! Did he have hormonal problems, or what made the dr. try that? We're dealing with MFI, too, and I haven't heard much about that treatment. GL!
ICLW
I hope your optimism for this cycle turns into a BFP... and I'm SO jealous that you're doing a trash the dress session! My DH won't do it, no matter how much I beg!
ICLW
Hilary:
My DH was first on clomid (pretty standard for MFI) but has very very low testosterone (38, normal is above 240!!) So when the clomid did not work the uro wanted him to try the hcg injects. He takes a very diluted amount and does it IM shot 3 x per week. We knew right away that is was working, and sure enough we were right!! Not only did it help his testosterone increase, but after 3-4 months, it made his sperm count go back up to the noraml range (excpet for still low morph)
So I depending on your DH's problem, I would def. ask your uro what he thinks abotu trying it!!
Jill,
My DH is not doing the shoot with me, although that would be FUN!!
Thanks so much for visiting my blog! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you, and yes, you should stay optimistic!
Have a great time with your girlfriends trashing your dresses and I look forward to the pics!
*ICLW*
Trashing your dress sounds like tons of fun. Can't wait to see the pics.
Wishing lots of luck with this cycle and hope that your beautiful chart (medically induced or not) turns into a BFP!
ICLW
The photo shoot sounds like fun! GL with this cycle, I am really pulling for you!
ICLW :)
Trashing the dress sounds fun! Better than my dress sitting in a garment bag upstairs for the past 10+ years!
I want to see pics of your Trash the Dress session! That sounds so super fun! And, as always, I am rooting for you this cycle :) (jmkatz)
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