I DID IT!

I gave MYSELF my trigger shot last night!!! YAY!!

First time ever I have actually followed through and given myself the shot. I feel so proud of myself, like I deserve a IF badge or something. Well last night my DH was not feeling too well, I am didn't think it was very nice to wake him at 1 am to give me a shot, so before we went to bed I practiced. On a lemon : ) My main issue with not being able to shoot myself was always being unsure of how hard and fast to push the needle in. What if I go too fast and it hurts? What if I go to slow and don't get it in all the way? What if I have to pull it out and start over? So I practiced! I even held the lemon like my fat roll and jabbed the needle in just like it was my own skin. I even took a deep breath before the shot...lol. And I did it a few times until I felt comfortable.

As we went to bed, I told DH I will do my very best not to wake you. I woke up at 12:45 (well not really woke up, because I couldn't sleep last night...there is just something about knowing you have to get up in 2 hours and get a shot that makes it hard to sleep) to mix and prepare my meds. Now I don't know if its because I am just so sick of this shit, or if it was because I was tired and just wanted to get it over with, or simply because I knew I shouldn't wake up DH, but I sat down in the chair and just did it. And didn't think twice (like I usually do)!

Afterwards, I felt so proud and wondered to myself what was I so afraid of? It was NOTHING! Those needles are so sharp they just go right in pretty effortlessly.

So now I am all triggered! I go in in the morning for my IUI, hope and pray that DH's numbers are good! Oh and tomorrow is Kay's 5th birthday party!! (Oh and why do my IUI's always fall on a day where I have something major going on?) WOW- I cant believe she's 5, but that's a whole other post in itself...

Hopefully the third times the charm!!